Category Archives: seasons

Grief triggers…

  Today, I encountered one. It’s pretty easy to encounter them in my line of work, actually–plenty of situations where you might find them. So there was one. But it’s not just that. It’s this time of year. This time … Continue reading

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October is coming.

I know I’ve not posted for a while. I thought that once I finished my internship, I’d have time to post to my blog. Well, no. I spent the summer scrambling to get a chaplain residency, which I was able … Continue reading

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May is among the cruelest months.

November is the cruelest month. (Sorry, T.S. Eliot…November, not April.) That was when Nelson died. This is the month of the six-month sadiversary…this year, it’s a year and six months. Everything is counted by that. Everything. May is a heavy … Continue reading

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So. Christmas. And New Year. Yeah.

It went ok.The beginning of the month was hard. The beginning of the month is always hard. Because that’s when It Happened, you know. It’s the every-month-sadiversary. I do not like it.And it seems like I spent the rest of … Continue reading

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One Year…

…as of last Saturday, November 6th. I was too full of grief that weekend to post. I went up to NY for the one-year memorial service. It was good. More on that later. It’s still too fresh now… I hear … Continue reading

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Eleven months, and Sunday would have been our third anniversary

I look at the roses he gave me last year. I had just finished drying them. I only saved the rosebuds. I would have saved the roses entire if I’d known they were to be The Last Roses. They weren’t … Continue reading

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Things I dread…

I dread October. October 3rd was our anniversary. That weekend last year was also the last time I saw him alive. That will be 11 months’ sadiversary, one year since I saw him alive…Dread, dread, dread… Labor Day weekend was … Continue reading

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Hearts shouldn’t stop before their time

Hearts shouldn’t stop before their time;They should work properly, and do what they’re told. Folks should wait to die, for when they’re good and old;To die beforetime breaks all sense and reason.  No, They should wait, til they’re long past … Continue reading

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