Category Archives: grieving

Grief triggers…

  Today, I encountered one. It’s pretty easy to encounter them in my line of work, actually–plenty of situations where you might find them. So there was one. But it’s not just that. It’s this time of year. This time … Continue reading

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coal and diamonds

I hope thatall this pressurehas a purpose.If that ream of coalwere sentientwould it cry outas it’s made into diamond?Let this be for something.Oh, let this be for something.If I’m to be crushed–and I am crushed–I am utterly crushed,I am brought … Continue reading

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I thought I knew you; what did I know?

I’m looking through you Where did you go?I thought I knew you What did I know?You don’t look different But you have changed I’m looking through you You’re not the same Your lips are moving I cannot hear Your voice … Continue reading

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Thaes oferaode, thisses swa maeg–That was overcome, this also may…

My dear readers, I apologise for not writing. It has been an awful, horrible, no good, very bad fall. I’m so glad it’s over with. Every time I was about to write something, it seemed I had another assignment due … Continue reading

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Punchy Tips for Great Unsolicited Advice

This post was originally posted on my old blog on May 31, 2010. I still need to post something reflective about my CPE experience, but it’s still in the process of ending, so I’ll write about it once it’s fully wrapped … Continue reading

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May is among the cruelest months.

November is the cruelest month. (Sorry, T.S. Eliot…November, not April.) That was when Nelson died. This is the month of the six-month sadiversary…this year, it’s a year and six months. Everything is counted by that. Everything. May is a heavy … Continue reading

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Finally feeling better–at last!

It certainly took long enough! Good grief! Just an update to let ya’ll know how I am. Better. Much better. And when I compare me now to me last year, I can’t believe how much better I’m doing and how … Continue reading

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It’s been a rough month.

Really, really rough. I’m on my fourth round of antibiotics. Two of them this time, twice daily. To go all month. Still on them. And just at the point that I was starting to feel a little better, I caught … Continue reading

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Sick and tired of being sick and tired…

I am sick. I have been sick since the week after Thanksgiving. I got an infection that never really went away, and eventually turned into a kidney infection (acute pyelonephretis, for you Latin-lovers out there). If you’re wondering why I … Continue reading

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So. Christmas. And New Year. Yeah.

It went ok.The beginning of the month was hard. The beginning of the month is always hard. Because that’s when It Happened, you know. It’s the every-month-sadiversary. I do not like it.And it seems like I spent the rest of … Continue reading

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I would like to thank the Academy…

…Har har har. In all seriousness, I would like to thank psychologydegree.net, a website devoted to promoting psychology programs, for recognizing my blog in its “2010 Top Widowhood Blog” award category. Most of the other award-winners were already on my … Continue reading

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One Year…

…as of last Saturday, November 6th. I was too full of grief that weekend to post. I went up to NY for the one-year memorial service. It was good. More on that later. It’s still too fresh now… I hear … Continue reading

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Eleven months, and Sunday would have been our third anniversary

I look at the roses he gave me last year. I had just finished drying them. I only saved the rosebuds. I would have saved the roses entire if I’d known they were to be The Last Roses. They weren’t … Continue reading

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Things I dread…

I dread October. October 3rd was our anniversary. That weekend last year was also the last time I saw him alive. That will be 11 months’ sadiversary, one year since I saw him alive…Dread, dread, dread… Labor Day weekend was … Continue reading

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Hearts shouldn’t stop before their time

Hearts shouldn’t stop before their time;They should work properly, and do what they’re told. Folks should wait to die, for when they’re good and old;To die beforetime breaks all sense and reason.  No, They should wait, til they’re long past … Continue reading

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The Long Sojourn

How do I get there? To the place of unmisery     To that place that isn’t    The worst of places to be–  How do I get there?Does it exist anywhere? Where’s my directions?   I’m tired; I’m tired of traveling … Continue reading

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Jabberwocky’s Cousin

Beware the counterfactual hypotheticalThe jaws that bite, the teeth that snatch;Beware the jub-jub bird, and shunThe frumious bandersnatch. The counterfactual hypotheticalThat cousin to the Jabberwock–That knits a daisy chain of IfsThat trap you fast, after it stalks. It lies in … Continue reading

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